Just finished watching this Korean variety show called "Happy Together" the Singles Special. Basically the show interviewed popular Korean males in the show biz and how they handled their singleness. A normal day for them included working out, taking care of their pets, or studying more in their craft.
One of the guest told of handling his loneliness by pretending people were at his home. Another guest said he almost slipped and hurt himself and that made him think, "what if I really hurt myself? Since no one's here, what would happen to me?"
In another segment of the show the guest were asked what annoyed them the most about being single. The response was unanimous:
"When people say, what's taking you so long? It's time to get married."
Mind you, these guest were between the ages of 35 and 45, very popular actors or singers in Korea. My mind raced... why are they single still? They are successful, they have things going for them... but why? Is it due to their success or the thought that they don't want to burden a women because of publicity or whatever?
Of course this show cut deep. At 29, I've never been in a relationship. I go back and forth saying that I'm fine in my singleness, but the truth is... it's lonely.
I think sayings like "Wait on the Lord" or "God has someone for you" have screwed with my head. I mean I understand them, and maybe God does have someone for me, but how do I know? Is this me doubting God and His ability to... I cant even find the right word... provide(?), bless(?), me with someone?
And what if God doesnt have someone for me? When someone tells me that, I become a little cynical and think, "How do you really know? Has God told you that?" And is "waiting" really mean not being proactive? Am I just too picky in my choice of women? And of the many women who have come and gone in my life, would any of them have worked out if I did something differently?
Ehh, that last question... I gotta stop living in the past.
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